It does seem rather apt to be writing this blog post on the ifnal day of Big Brother, ever, but I can assure you that this post has nothing to do with said television show.
Tonight is my last night in my own my bed before i become an undergraduate tomorrow. This week has been a week of mixed emotions.
It has been a real blessing say see people this week, to laugh with them, and catch up and say farewell. The most difficult goodbye is saying goodbye to my Gran. Over the last year I have grown so close to her as we laugh, cry, grieve and mourn together the calling home of my grandpa. Whenever I drop her off, I never manage to keep a dry eye. I hate leaving her, seeing her pain, I really hate leaving her on her own. And so therefore, I feel a hufe rip as a i leave her for a loing period of time. But our God is strong, holing her in His hands, and because of this, I know that I can leave her, and it will be tough, but His plan is greater.
This last week has been a really bizarre time. It still hasn't sunk in really that I am starting university tomorrow! So a mixture of not packing, because it doesn't really feel like I need too! But alas, today is the day... all the bags are packed, the car is fully loaded, and Mummy, Daddy and Cammy Potts are about to head north and move me into Edinburgh!
So, what am I looking forward to?
I a really looking forward to meeting lots of new people, making new, lifelong friends, developing my drama, finding a new church family to become part of... but mostly I cannot wait to go further with God, I am looking forward to growing deeping in my faith, learning more about myself and my relationship with God through what the next few years holds for me. And even though I know very little of what it will hold, I am certain that it is going to be good. I want to be able to glorify God through my actions, my words and me deeds. I want to lift high the name of Jesus in Edinburgh, and I want to be involved in the journey to faith and the journey of faith of many people. This is my prayer.
There is a niggle in the back of my mind, that my work will be futile, but that is selfish, and I feel stupid for feeling this way.
I know that God will be working in my life, so really that explains why the excitment out weighs my anxiety.
But, now it is time to head to bed, to sleep well, and rest while I get ready to go.
Next post, will be from Edinburgh!!!
How exciting!
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